First of all, Happy New Year! My apologies for being such a terrible blogger as of late. I went on vacation and then the holidays hit and I got lazy, what can I say?! I’ve definitely had some things to blog about though, so here we go:
Over Christmas I went home to my family’s farm in North Dakota. I usually bring some food along when I know I’ll be there for that long (5 days), but this time I didn’t bring much because I had been sick and didn’t do the greatest job of preparing for the trip. I figured I’d be able to find something to eat, even if it wasn’t ideal.
One night in particular I decided to make some black bean tacos. I made enough for my parents to eat as well, because I think cooking good vegan food for people is one of the best ways to show them what veganism is all about – that we still eat great food, it just doesn’t have animal products in it. Anyway, I cooked this meal but ended up eating alone – in this case, mostly just because my parents weren’t hungry. But over the holidays I felt sort of left out whenever we sat down to eat. I had my own “special” food, which was nice and all, but I couldn’t participate in the food traditions I grew up with, and it sort of made me feel isolated. Sure, I was still there celebrating with my family, but it just wasn’t the same. It made me realize how lonely it can feel sometimes to be vegan.
Lonely or not, though, I wouldn’t change my decision. I don’t WANT to eat our traditional foods anymore: creamed corn, smoked sheep meat, beef meatballs, buttered potatoes, etc. They make me nostalgic on the one hand, but basically just gross me out on the other.
I don’t have any major insight on this, really, I just was thinking about how even though being vegan can feel isolating or lonely sometimes, I still know it’s the right thing for me to do. I guess that’s why they say doing the right thing is rarely the easy thing. Plus, on the flip side of that loneliness is the fact that I’ve met a lot of really great, fun people because of my veganism. The community I’ve built here is great and feels anything but lonely!